Friends

Let me start by saying that I don't like the way this BlogPress app writes. If I hit enter to make a new paragraph, it doesn't register. So it looks like a rambling, one-paragraph story. See? I just hit enter. You can't even tell. Second, I would like to state that I have no good friends. I mean, I've got SOME friends (literally, a few) but I don't have any close friends. And I'm okay with that. Really! Don't give me that look. Besides, that's what the Internet is for. To make us feel like we have friends, right?? ...hello? ANYways, still a continuous paragraph. Back to the story. I have a handful (my friends are apparently pocket-sized) of friends that I hang out with maybe once every couple of months. So they're more like, "used-to-be-super-close-friends-but-now-we're-mostly-acquaintances" kind of friends. And again, that's totally cool with me. I've got my son, and though he can't talk yet, we're developing a pretty close relationship. And I would much rather have those "occasional" friends than those friends that are only your friend when it's convenient to them or when you happen to reach out to them. I've got quite a few of those. I have one that I used to talk to all the time, but it was mostly only when her and her man were going through tough times. I was a flotation device, with "S.S. Tool" written on me. Then we stopped talking completely, because I got sick of being called every few days to cheer her up about her most recent "this one is the end for sure" breakup. About a week ago, though, I got a call from her out of the blue. I thought maybe she was calling to talk since it had been a while (raising a kid and working doesn't leave me much time to call and chat) and I had some free time. So I answered. And lo, it was again about her "ex" boyfriend. Glad I could help you out. And fuck you, enter button. But I think the kind of "friend" I dislike more than that is the one that pretends that you're on their mind. The one that you call, but they don't have time to talk or they have nothing to say. So the conversation turns into "...well you seem busy, so I'll let you go" when really you mean, "I'm gonna go talk to a lint ball, because it'll be way more stimulating that listening to myself try to get a conversation out of you". I hate that. They never call you, ever. But when you call, they always say the same damn thing: "I was just thinking of you today, and I was like 'I should call that person!'" Umm, yeah? Fuck that. My point is, be sure you know who's actually your friend. I thought I had a lot of friends, until I needed their support during the whole "I'm going to be a 20 year old dad" stage of my life. Then they just conveniently were too busy to hang out. Hmm. If you've got close friends that are there for you as much as you're there for them, don't lose that. Don't let them go. If you don't have that, oh well! Don't be sad about it. I'm much happier with having no close friends at all, than with having those friends I mentioned up there. And again, I've got my son. Sure, one day he'll have a best friend and I won't hold that position anymore, but for now I'm never going to take for granted that huge smile he gives me when I'm with him, and the warm feeling I get from him. That's true friendship. - Posted using BlogPress from a really intelligent rectangle.